First, LE is pretty much putting themselves in harms way, in close proximity to potential bad guys, with most every human interaction. I’d never compare myself to that because it’s just not realistic. The most realistic situation for me is some whack job in a convenience store or maybe a workplace shooter.
The reality, for me personally, is that if you are within 8 feet of me and presenting a threat, I’d be far better off taking my chances physically than I would drawing a weapon. Acting like I have the training and reps to make a millisecond draw and fire on a douchebag charging at me from 8 feet is just silly. If anything, fucking around with something under my shirt has limited my ability to respond in ways in which I do have a lot more training and experience.
No one of that should be read as me saying I’m a badass. Far from it, which is why I know where my strengths are and where they aren’t.