If you want something then you go and fucking get it. You don't sit on your ass and wait for shit to be handed to you. Don't like where you're at in life? Then do something about it.
I'm young but I damn sure know that some dedication, hard work, and hustle goes a long way in today's world.
With that being said I am sorry for what you are and have gone through, BUT isn't it times like this that truly define how much of a man you really are?
I'm noticing that today's society is suffering from extreme laziness and still expects handouts or what I like to call.... "Bernieitis"